The Immediacy of Awakening

Truth does not exist as a separate reality as a static Absolute. It has no meaning as an idea or concept. Truth is expressed in what we do. Therefore we can't talk about it without being it. It has to be proven as we speak about it. It has to be manifested through our understanding of the immediacy of awakening. It is now and now and now. Anything less will only be an expression of ignorance and of arrogance if we believe we know something.

At midday walking in Bodhgaya suddenly I saw and understood, "I have always been free, and I have always known it". I looked back on my life and realized that I have always enjoyed this natural freedom. This seeing came from far behind me and as I looked through my eyes I saw that this world is nothing but a dream. This seeing was so fine, so subtle that I almost forgot it. Listening to Andrew in satsang I was reminded and I remembered everything clearly. It was so simple, so easy. I was full of joy.

One night walking home after Satsang suddenly another insight; I saw clearly that I had never met Andrew. Astonishing, all prior events to my present moment had not occurred. Time itself was usurped. I laughed out loud at the predicament. All events leading up to my conscious present experience, all history, was clearly seen as having never existed at all. Time as a reference was nullified. How extraordinary!

At 2 am I woke up into a realization. Life was celebrating life itself. Nature was a celebration, a joyous dance for itself. It turned into Love. All-love was pervading and penetrating all things; all nature, man and woman. Truth is Love. Love is truth. Then a vision before me; falling leaves from a dark night sky. Its beauty makes me look up - then suddenly - an explosion that rocked the very bottom of my being. I and the whole universe exploded and for an instant the universe split in two revealing an immense new universe behind.

Mu rises from the wall of space and goes back into it. The wall being void with unlimited potentiality. Always full, never lacking never exhausted. The void wherein all things are contained is inexhaustible. It is always full. It contains all things, manifest and unmanifest. It is unlimited potentiality.
It is pure. It is still. It is reality.
Only that is REAL.

Like a spring, ever afresh, nature –in celebration and in joy, explodes into infinite patterns.

Without plans I live with You.
Without thinking about you, without seeing you.
Knowing nothing, what can I be but happy?
Knowing nothing means to face You. Facing you, you bring a smile to my lips.
Isn’t this the fountain of life?

Nothing is hidden. Just as you see the scenery in front of your eyes you can see the content of your mind right now. Whether it is clear or cloudy you have no problem of distinguishing it. Why do you dislike a rainy day?

With no control over my emotions, suddenly love shines through the despair. The underlying reality of love and beauty shines through the apparently real experience of life. Subtle and soft the mind is unable to grasp it.

In a clear mirror everything is clearly seen. Everything I do has an effect. I cause my own pain. Being here again, nothing ever happened. Form touches me, sound surrounds me, color attracts me. Seeing through the veil of life...
I am fulfilled.

There is a rapture inside that wants to take place. It has nothing to do with personal feelings towards others. It’s a rapture of recognition of the truth of non-abidance, of non-existence.
Emptiness doesn’t wait for anyone. Emptiness will not justify itself. It moves on. It is like a current that moves across anything that is standing still. No blame. It’s a force that doesn’t acknowledge any arguments. Blessed is he who lets go. If he succeeds his life will be a river.

Open or shut your eyes, the splendor is all around.
Everything is seen in the light.

Seen in the light everything is the same.
True and false do not apply.

Still, without going anywhere, I move freely.

On my way to Hokota Town, Hokota is coming to me.

I only speak to myself. I only write to myself. I only think to myself. Everything I do
I only do to myself.

Since the beginning, not a single step forward.

There is no path. There is no learning. There is no coming closer to. There is no maybe, soon or almost. Everything is self-evident right now.

No thought means no mind. No mind means no seeing, no hearing, no feeling, no thinking. No body, no world, no nothing.

Since your fundamental mind is empty as space, limitless and void of characteristics it can not be held or placed anywhere.

The presence of your true nature is not revealed yet not hidden. It is right in front of your eyes, and right behind your eyes.

Ignorance is enlightenment. All different shades fills the spectrum.

Emptiness fills the void to the rim.

It is impossible to fall out of the universe.

The round moon is full. There is no flaw.

Blazing light, lightening speed.


At once step up onto the platform.
Above, communication can begin.
Below, vain discrimination never ends.


The silence sets in. The caravan has moved on. Left alone in the dessert. Useless and freed I wait under a clear night-sky. Gaining strength for my solo journey. I shout into the darkness. -Stay still, comes the reply. The world is too strong. I leave it. No longer am I. All is erased. What is left? Infinite light spreading everywhere. A light without explanation. An emptiness so full. A blindness so clear. Ecstasy, give yourself up. Here all rules break. Come, we can walk together, you and I.

Vad finns kvar? Oändligt ljus sprider sig över allt. Ett ljus utan förklaring. En tomhet så full. En blindhet så klar. Extas, ge dig själv upp. Här brister alla regler. Kom, vi kan gå tillsamans -du och jag

The kingdom of God. Heaven descends. Secret of secrets. Nothing else I ever wanted. Fear of dying. Have to go. No choice any more. I want to scream, to shout with joy. I am so lucky. I am so happy.

Cloud formations lit up by light descending to Earth, the kingdom of God inviting me -do you want to take part? I saw myself being flung out of this solar system, away from this planet, alone and leaving everything and everybody behind. I felt like a lamb being picked up by strong arms and carried away to slaughter. Its throat was going to be slit as a matter of course.

My eyes repeatedly opened and closed. Spontaneously clearing a way.

"Sri Sri Anandamayi Ma - the Universal mother, came to me in the night. I held out my hands saying, -don’t come close, I’m dirty. She embraced me, loving me like a mother loves her child. And I knew that if she would come into my life there would be no more fear. She came and the whole Universe followed as her shadow. She is truly everything and the only One".
I was staying alone in the Shivananda Ashram in Rishikesh and tried to meditate in the evening in my room but found it very difficult to concentrate my mind. I was at a loss of how to proceed and felt unable to muster up the energy needed to pursue my spiritual liberation. I felt desperate. Sick and disillusioned with my weakness I cried out for help silently within. Almost in tears I fell asleep. Not long time after, I awoke, my eyes repeatedly flicking open and closing automatically. I was conscious that a path was being cleared or opened, when Sri Sri Anandamayi Ma came to me. She flowed forward towards me in her elderly female form and I held out my hands saying, “don’t come close, I’m dirty”. She embraced me, loving me like a mother loves her child. And I knew that if she would come into my life there would be no more fear. She came and the whole Universe followed as her shadow. She is truly everything and the only One. I had seen her flowing into me and over me with an un-surpassing over-whelming sense of love, and trailing behind her was the whole visible universe, revealing her own body. How blessed I was from this. I had cried out in spiritual agony to no one in particular in this little room and she came in person to bless and help me. In the contrast to the the divinity displayed my own insignificance and wretchedness was evident yet Anandamayi Ma didn’t hesitate to embrace me. Such love.

The sky, the rivers, the mountains, the fields. The earth, the forest, the clouds, the rain. The sea, the wind. The sun, the moon and the stars. All protects us and nourishes us. They provide and serve. How faint isn’t our grasp of this?

Paper thin, like the surface of the ocean, the firmament rips open. Behind Shiva is roaring with laughter, his grin recognizable through the tear.

A shout so loud nobody hears it. The world brimming with fullness. A moving inferno in pastel colors.

The morning star is not the star in the sky. It is the one bright pearl shinning solitary right in front of you.

Gently coming upon the understanding that the true norm for a human being is that I have sole responsibility for the welfare of every human being and I have sole responsibility for the welfare of the planet as a whole. This wonderful truth was not a heavy burden but instead something I wanted and it was only love. I was given back my body and I was given back my voice. Uninterrupted words of praise came. Unrestrained, the earth became my pillow, my bed -so close, so near. Björn was erased, name and history all gone. This was new. No body-consciousness and no other. Only white light pervading and all included all being One. There was no reason to go anywhere. Resurrection in a glorified body. This was blessedness and it was Holy. Only through the Mercy of God.
It is for all. It enables us to come out of the whirlpool of life and see the unity of all. It shows the way of how to live. It is what the Buddha outlined in his eightfold noble path. It ennobles us and empowers us.

Vi kan rädda historien om vi tar ansvar för arvet.
Vi kan rädda världen om vi tar personligt ansvar för allt som har hänt.Genom att ta hela världens skuld på dina axlar så "förlöser" du all synd som någonsin hänt. Du räddar världen. Du tar på dig hela ansvaret för allt som någonsin har hänt genom historien och därmed upphäver du domen över arvssynden.

To whom could I concede this? To no one but my own wit. By my own choice I step forward. Stepping forward. Claiming ownership. I present myself for the first time. Tired of being divided I decided to go forth and claim ownership. Due to this Björn is erased from memory and from history. This should happen sooner or later. There is no return because there is nothing to return to. Of all the understandings this was the least spectacular. It was simply a choice. This is the opposite shore, the other side.

As I walked across the hill I experienced that the whole mountain had been transported to heaven. Now I understood what I had read in the Buddhist Sutras. Often in the beginning of the sermons of the Buddha it is said that the place of the preaching, many times Vulture Peak was transported or lifted up to heaven so that heavenly beings would be able to attend.

-Jag såg alla judar som dog i nazi Tyskland. Alla de som gasades och plågades ihjäl. Och jag såg att ingen, inte en enda har lidit.

När jag saknar, är det enda jag saknar gud.
När jag längtar, är det enda jag längtar efter gud.

When I fear, I only fear God.
When I love, I only love God.

Nothing else will ever satisfy me.

Life eternal is eternal life.

“Smoke gets into my eyes sitting by the fire all day”

There exist only one Person. I saw him stretch across the Universe. One Being with legs and arms just like us. He is the only Person. We are but the reflections of Him just as innumerable scattered pieces of broken glass all reflect the same object.

A puppet on a string believing in his own independence. The puppet Master has his day.

Everybody wants world peace. The Dalai Lama never stops talking about it. If you want it you have to solve it right away. There is no use in planning, making strategies or argue over politics. It must be solved as to what it is, as to what it means. You must make a firm resolve to go to the end of it right now. Not reaching the bottom, not solving the issue totally is as if you haven't even started. Merely scratching the surface is useless.

It's not about our crises; it's about the crises of the world. Don't focus on your little crises but focus on the biggest crises that face humanity. Solve them and your little problems will go away.

Dare to venture out into unknown territory, into the unknown, in order to find out what the truth actually is. This has to be done all the time. Leaving what you know behind, ready to look again. It is an absolute demand.

This will only work if you want it. You have to seek it. In the wanting to know there is the openness to take something new in. It is not difficult.