Collected Poems
Beauty
Turn inside out
Flesh exposed and
Nerves laid bare
In our weakness
On our knees
There is tremendous grace
Your innermost love
A Many-Splendored Thing
Spirit filled light,
filters into my chest.
Soft mist unlocks a stony heart.
Not my will but Yours.
This communion is what makes us human.
When my friend came home,
her daughters naturally fell into grace.
The most natural thing for those we love,
while her friends questioned this
and questioned that.
Disbelief is such a grieving matter.
This divine nature is what we share,
when we invite Jesus into our lives.
Gods grace is a place in which we live,
a room where lovers see eye to eye.
Our Joy
In this room
I feel more at home
Seclusive and delusional
I managed to build a cell
Sound proof and insular
Hearing my heart beat
Counting my luck
Joy is welling up
No I wont audition
Can't bear the public vote
Having retired from the common norm
That I may only speak with You
Wind Song
Let my song be a wind song
Let me come over you like sea breeze
Wrap your hair around you
Moving across sand dunes
Up and over hills
Passing over the surface
Waves longing to keep up
I gather speed, move up on high
Stretching the clouds out far and wide
Like long white veils
Making the sun cast fire upon the evening sky
Fire
Long forgotten
Uncertain pieces of memory
Fragments dissolving faster than can be reassembled
History burning up
Closing the gap to now
No time to reminisce
Got to keep ahead
Of the flame closing in from behind
Soon there will be only present
Fire overtaking thought
Mercy
A softness falls over me and my
thoughts flow effortlessly into patterns.
Gently it all becomes clear:
I have sole responsibility
for the well-being of every living being.
And I have sole responsibility
for the welfare of planet Earth.
This is not a burden,
it is what I had always wanted.
There is so much love in wanting this.
Love for every single being.
So much love for this earth.
All sense of self faded away,
until nothing remained.
History erased, name and person all gone.
White light filled my body and overflowed.
My body returned to me, resurrected.
My voice was given back to me, unimpeded.
All life was revealed as blessings and spontaneously
words of thanks and praise came.
The ground became my closest ally, my dearest friend.
As my bed or pillow, so close, so near, the earth bore testimony to me.
With a glorified body, resurrected and at one with my father.
This was Holy. A gift of Mercy.
Be longing
Bright sunshine covers both of us,
and as our sisters and brothers join,
their smiles confirms what's in our hearts.
All hoods and veils are down,
cool shades pocketed.
Eyes speak the language of love.
or like..
Stepping into a natural pool,
-careful the water is hot,
slowly sink in to your chin.
Recline back, take a deep breath,
look across.
Your friend returning your smile.
One experience.
So now can we see that we all share
all of our experiences in the same way.
The same joy, the same pain.
That's why we laugh together,
cry together,
exist together.
A Shout So Loud
There is a scream
Coming from the universe
A shout so loud nobody hears it
It covers every pocket of space
Like freshly fallen snow
Dresses landscapes in the purest of white
It breaks the grip of time
It pierces through space
It courses eternally
It's the beginning and the end
See, I Make All Things New
When you hear these words,
do you hear?
Look, see.
I make all things new.
These words holds belief.
There is faith,
already
in the reading.
There's wonderful mystery to it,
our mind cannot grasp it,
but it resonates in our heart.
See, I make all things new.
I turn water
into wine.
Belief is acknowledging his voice,
in your heart
as you read
what he told us.
See, I make all things new..
It Stirs
It begins
deep inside
a stir
a gentle breeze
calling me away
early in the morning.
I hear it
like a long lost memory,
soft sound of waves
returning to the sea.
It begins
like a rumor
not yet distinct
like when you sense
someone's at the door.
This gentle calling
catches me unaware
when I settled down for the day
work all done
then it comes again
and makes me share it
with you.
Unforgivable
Deep time shifts layers of self
Whose memories hold no information
Bar its own
Standing in our present time
Like upon a sheet of thin glass dissolving
Our feet falls through
Reaching the very beginning
Of creation itself
How we all stretch from beginning to end
Endlessly now
Come To The Water
Come to the spring
refresh your soul
listen to its melody
softly it springs to mind
remember
sweet embrace
See its reflection
inside your heart
softly it churns
Scoop a handful
drink
wash your face
cool on hot skin
Come to the water
Spell Bound
Waves like of a tuning fork
Resonates through the body
I relax and let go
Of all my desires
I can feel my toes
Now with intention I expand
Filling the whole universe
With my soul
Breathing in, I close the light of day
Breathing out gently, it all comes alive again
How is this not ordinary?
My eyes turns into constellations
And I loose count
Of how many times you've said
I love you
Wishing you were here
Brings you closer
My will, I realize
Is a mighty sword
To sweep this night away
Wide Open Plains
There is this declaration
of a wide open field
as far as the eye can see
there is no obstruction
so smooth so plain
the wind has ample space to roam free
the sun covers every inch
not the slightest shadow at noon
the air is fresh
just the best for breathing in.
I stand at its edge
and even as I turn
it follows me around
I look down, I look up
the ground stretches now in all directions.
How wonderful this truth is,
feet firmly planted
and all around,
wide open plains.
Bertil, My Father
My father died.
I lit some candles
to drive out the cold.
February in Sweden,
in a morgue.
I spoke words of fare well,
don't worry about us
we're ok
please forgive me
I love you dad
be on your way.
At home with mom,
snowfall in the street lights.
I tell her
he's here.
She looks up and nods,
that is what we feel.
Inside filling up.
Grief is but
loves release.
A Shared Passion
I'm living in a world that has yet to come into existence.
The only way to make it real is to bring you into it.
I can glorify it, rave about it, but without your help it won't come into being.
It's like... I want to light a fuse wire, set off an avalanche.
Open Arms
Let go with both your hands.
Rely on the infinite mass just beyond your reach.
The treasure storehouse needs no inventory.
How futile trying to define ourselves,
from what we hold in our hands.
I Have One Desire
As you rise
I want to rise with you
When you speak
I want to be your tongue
As you listen
I overhear
You find it funny
like an echo
Being one in this relationship before we were two.
Like twins
one thinking, the other speaking.
No but I...
on it goes till we lost sight
of who's who.
Blessed union, too wonderful to comprehend.
When you lie down
I will sit on your bed
Waiting till you get up again
mimicking your every move.
It almost annoys you
but you find yourself lifted
by strong arms
knowing your every move
You take a chance,
handing over your will.
We hold our breath..
I don't know how you caught up with me.
Never thought you find me on this little planet.
Long time in the coming
but better late then never
You rushed in
and I was born a second time.
Wrestling with my new inheritance
it turns into play
Go on friend,
I won't stand in your way
no more.
Communion
We walk backwards
Till we enter into union
It's already here
Waiting to be possessed
Through our language
Our common tongue
One body, not two
One mind
Not mine, not yours
Silent Within
When we fall quiet
Silent within
When we become still
Motionless
This room
Has not limits
In it our intelligence rests
And our knowing merges
So when we rise
And lay eyes on each other
You become my brother
Nay, even closer, my other
C0-existence
I'm living in a world that has yet to come into existence.
The only way to make it real is to bring You into it.
I can glorify it, rave about it, but without your help it won't come into being.
It's like.. I want to light a fuse-wire, set off an avalanche..
Turn inside out
Flesh exposed and
Nerves laid bare
In our weakness
On our knees
There is tremendous grace
Your innermost love
A Many-Splendored Thing
Spirit filled light,
filters into my chest.
Soft mist unlocks a stony heart.
Not my will but Yours.
This communion is what makes us human.
When my friend came home,
her daughters naturally fell into grace.
The most natural thing for those we love,
while her friends questioned this
and questioned that.
Disbelief is such a grieving matter.
This divine nature is what we share,
when we invite Jesus into our lives.
Gods grace is a place in which we live,
a room where lovers see eye to eye.
Our Joy
In this room
I feel more at home
Seclusive and delusional
I managed to build a cell
Sound proof and insular
Hearing my heart beat
Counting my luck
Joy is welling up
No I wont audition
Can't bear the public vote
Having retired from the common norm
That I may only speak with You
Wind Song
Let my song be a wind song
Let me come over you like sea breeze
Wrap your hair around you
Moving across sand dunes
Up and over hills
Passing over the surface
Waves longing to keep up
I gather speed, move up on high
Stretching the clouds out far and wide
Like long white veils
Making the sun cast fire upon the evening sky
Fire
Long forgotten
Uncertain pieces of memory
Fragments dissolving faster than can be reassembled
History burning up
Closing the gap to now
No time to reminisce
Got to keep ahead
Of the flame closing in from behind
Soon there will be only present
Fire overtaking thought
Mercy
A softness falls over me and my
thoughts flow effortlessly into patterns.
Gently it all becomes clear:
I have sole responsibility
for the well-being of every living being.
And I have sole responsibility
for the welfare of planet Earth.
This is not a burden,
it is what I had always wanted.
There is so much love in wanting this.
Love for every single being.
So much love for this earth.
All sense of self faded away,
until nothing remained.
History erased, name and person all gone.
White light filled my body and overflowed.
My body returned to me, resurrected.
My voice was given back to me, unimpeded.
All life was revealed as blessings and spontaneously
words of thanks and praise came.
The ground became my closest ally, my dearest friend.
As my bed or pillow, so close, so near, the earth bore testimony to me.
With a glorified body, resurrected and at one with my father.
This was Holy. A gift of Mercy.
Be longing
Bright sunshine covers both of us,
and as our sisters and brothers join,
their smiles confirms what's in our hearts.
All hoods and veils are down,
cool shades pocketed.
Eyes speak the language of love.
or like..
Stepping into a natural pool,
-careful the water is hot,
slowly sink in to your chin.
Recline back, take a deep breath,
look across.
Your friend returning your smile.
One experience.
So now can we see that we all share
all of our experiences in the same way.
The same joy, the same pain.
That's why we laugh together,
cry together,
exist together.
A Shout So Loud
There is a scream
Coming from the universe
A shout so loud nobody hears it
It covers every pocket of space
Like freshly fallen snow
Dresses landscapes in the purest of white
It breaks the grip of time
It pierces through space
It courses eternally
It's the beginning and the end
See, I Make All Things New
When you hear these words,
do you hear?
Look, see.
I make all things new.
These words holds belief.
There is faith,
already
in the reading.
There's wonderful mystery to it,
our mind cannot grasp it,
but it resonates in our heart.
See, I make all things new.
I turn water
into wine.
Belief is acknowledging his voice,
in your heart
as you read
what he told us.
See, I make all things new..
It Stirs
It begins
deep inside
a stir
a gentle breeze
calling me away
early in the morning.
I hear it
like a long lost memory,
soft sound of waves
returning to the sea.
It begins
like a rumor
not yet distinct
like when you sense
someone's at the door.
This gentle calling
catches me unaware
when I settled down for the day
work all done
then it comes again
and makes me share it
with you.
Unforgivable
Deep time shifts layers of self
Whose memories hold no information
Bar its own
Standing in our present time
Like upon a sheet of thin glass dissolving
Our feet falls through
Reaching the very beginning
Of creation itself
How we all stretch from beginning to end
Endlessly now
Come To The Water
Come to the spring
refresh your soul
listen to its melody
softly it springs to mind
remember
sweet embrace
See its reflection
inside your heart
softly it churns
Scoop a handful
drink
wash your face
cool on hot skin
Come to the water
Spell Bound
Waves like of a tuning fork
Resonates through the body
I relax and let go
Of all my desires
I can feel my toes
Now with intention I expand
Filling the whole universe
With my soul
Breathing in, I close the light of day
Breathing out gently, it all comes alive again
How is this not ordinary?
My eyes turns into constellations
And I loose count
Of how many times you've said
I love you
Wishing you were here
Brings you closer
My will, I realize
Is a mighty sword
To sweep this night away
Wide Open Plains
There is this declaration
of a wide open field
as far as the eye can see
there is no obstruction
so smooth so plain
the wind has ample space to roam free
the sun covers every inch
not the slightest shadow at noon
the air is fresh
just the best for breathing in.
I stand at its edge
and even as I turn
it follows me around
I look down, I look up
the ground stretches now in all directions.
How wonderful this truth is,
feet firmly planted
and all around,
wide open plains.
Bertil, My Father
My father died.
I lit some candles
to drive out the cold.
February in Sweden,
in a morgue.
I spoke words of fare well,
don't worry about us
we're ok
please forgive me
I love you dad
be on your way.
At home with mom,
snowfall in the street lights.
I tell her
he's here.
She looks up and nods,
that is what we feel.
Inside filling up.
Grief is but
loves release.
A Shared Passion
I'm living in a world that has yet to come into existence.
The only way to make it real is to bring you into it.
I can glorify it, rave about it, but without your help it won't come into being.
It's like... I want to light a fuse wire, set off an avalanche.
Open Arms
Let go with both your hands.
Rely on the infinite mass just beyond your reach.
The treasure storehouse needs no inventory.
How futile trying to define ourselves,
from what we hold in our hands.
I Have One Desire
As you rise
I want to rise with you
When you speak
I want to be your tongue
As you listen
I overhear
You find it funny
like an echo
Being one in this relationship before we were two.
Like twins
one thinking, the other speaking.
No but I...
on it goes till we lost sight
of who's who.
Blessed union, too wonderful to comprehend.
When you lie down
I will sit on your bed
Waiting till you get up again
mimicking your every move.
It almost annoys you
but you find yourself lifted
by strong arms
knowing your every move
You take a chance,
handing over your will.
We hold our breath..
I don't know how you caught up with me.
Never thought you find me on this little planet.
Long time in the coming
but better late then never
You rushed in
and I was born a second time.
Wrestling with my new inheritance
it turns into play
Go on friend,
I won't stand in your way
no more.
Communion
We walk backwards
Till we enter into union
It's already here
Waiting to be possessed
Through our language
Our common tongue
One body, not two
One mind
Not mine, not yours
Silent Within
When we fall quiet
Silent within
When we become still
Motionless
This room
Has not limits
In it our intelligence rests
And our knowing merges
So when we rise
And lay eyes on each other
You become my brother
Nay, even closer, my other
C0-existence
I'm living in a world that has yet to come into existence.
The only way to make it real is to bring You into it.
I can glorify it, rave about it, but without your help it won't come into being.
It's like.. I want to light a fuse-wire, set off an avalanche..
Self Confession
To speak your name
When you can't wait to hear it
Said out aloud
Proves the greatest risk.
Professing knowledge
Of your whereabouts
Is like leaving the door ajar
For you to return home.
Bearing testimony of You
Will not hold up in court
I'm sentenced long before
I have a chance to plead my case.
As my only witness
You disclose nothing
Rendering my defence obsolete.
Alas, you will have to serve time with me
Since you can't stand
Leaving me alone.
When you can't wait to hear it
Said out aloud
Proves the greatest risk.
Professing knowledge
Of your whereabouts
Is like leaving the door ajar
For you to return home.
Bearing testimony of You
Will not hold up in court
I'm sentenced long before
I have a chance to plead my case.
As my only witness
You disclose nothing
Rendering my defence obsolete.
Alas, you will have to serve time with me
Since you can't stand
Leaving me alone.
Human
In a world gone crazy we suffer our brothers the most. What if we'd be a guest in a far flung place where they never seen one of us? How we'd be at loss to describe our petty nuances. And how free we'd be to be, just the one we'd want to be. Human like I know myself to be. Kind like my host treats me.
Never again can I see a friend like you, see me like you like me to be. I love you.
Never again can I see a friend like you, see me like you like me to be. I love you.
